I have had more than a few chances to perform, notably at the Oregon County Fair at one of the parking camps for a few hundred people and that was maybe the highlight of my travels as pertains to human contact.
The national forests have been my best friend, naps on the side of the road next to huge trees and gentle winds.
I have a few songs and stories in the works. I'd like to record 2 albums, make 3 music videos, invent a few major revisions to disposable culture, some essays about what it takes to be a good person, how to be a human in a time of such rapid change.
I'm pretty proud of what I've got up on soundcloud at the moment, it's difficult to get anyone to listen to any train of thought longer than 15 seconds but I have decided that Idiocracy can only be actively opposed with depth. That smoke and mirrors can only be opposed with authenticity. That being ignored by fools is a blessing, that independence is its own reward.
The problem of an artist is not success, it is obscurity. But if I'm going to overcome my obscurity problem, I don't want it to be through some cheap sacrifice. Desperation to be liked is especially ugly on artists.
Actually, my problem is that my 'day job' is ruined repeatedly by deceptive, mean people and I always have to scramble, and people wonder why I'm being so lazy not putting myself out there.
It's difficult to put yourself out there when you only have 500 bucks left, it's difficult to feel part of a community when you are pulling knives out of your back.
The USA is in clear moral crisis, across the board, I am having, frankly, trouble finding more than a handful of people I even want to know here. This may result in a hiatus, I don't know.
It's not just that I wonder if in such madness there is any safe place for a sane person, but that I see what is succeeding and it is really gross to me. This may turn me into a critic, I may have more success explaining why people making 100 grand telling jokes are actually not even comedians and those are actually not jokes.
Hmmm, perhaps. At least there is one thing to look forward in this world, a few more Game of Thrones episodes. But gosh it would be nice if all the billionaires at Amazoon and Netflorx could come up with more than an hour of content a week that was worth watching? Orange is the New Black, Handmaids Tale, True Detective and Top of the Lake have been decent also, but still, it is really amazing to me how much content is being made that is really sick.
blah blah blah I have show and movie ideas, if you'd like to see some new ideas I think I'm still answering the emails on my contact page. Lol, I am. It would be nice if I ever were to learn that someone had read something on my webpage, heck, if a person ever gets this far, we will have a special code! Which is this random phrase: Chicken Cordon Bleu
It may be many years before I hear this, will I be able to hold out that long? Well if people ignoring me was going to kill me I do suppose it already would have.